” Listen, the sower went out to sow. As he sowed, some of the seed fell along a path and the birds came and ate it up. Some of the seed fell on the rocky ground where it had little soil; it sprang up immediately because it had no depth; but when the sun rose and burned it, it withered because it had no roots. Other seed fell among thorn bushes and the thorns grew and choked it, so it did not produce any grain. But some seed fell on good soil, grew and increased and yielded grain. “
This is a parable from the Holy Bible, and I see lot of relevance for this in our daily life. Going by the ideas I have had, by this time I should be managing 15 companies and 4 non-profit organizations. I would have stopped consuming alcohol for ever. I would have had 7 hours of sleep every day. I would have exercised better every day. I would have loved others to the best of my ability every day. I would not have quarreled with any one. I would have donated more for charity. I would have written at least 5 books. I would have taken vacation every four months…. The list can go on and on. All of these are good, noble things!.
Right now, my thoughts are beginning to fall into place..and here is someone asking for a small help. Let me do that help, than writing about good things:-). Please excuse me.
Ok, it’s done. Here I was talking about the good intentions, which are not implemented. What I did not speak is about the ‘bad intentions, that replaced the good intentions’. From teenage till today, I used to love parties and there is no party for me, without alcohol. Alcohol is the trigger which starts the demolition of the ‘Good’ in me, and to be honest I like myself the most, when I have not touched alcohol for a very long time. I am at my creative best then. Then why do I drink?. This just baffles me.
“I don’t understand my own actions. For I don’t do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate” St.Paul
Over the years, I have created a social image that I love alcohol, and at some point in time I started hating it due to several reasons. When old acquaintances meet me after a long time, they are not updated of the change in me, so out of love they organize parties for me and it becomes very difficult for me to say ‘NO’, then. The same happens when I organize a get together. People expect alcohol by default, and if it is not there then it provides an ‘incomplete’ feeling for the guests as well for the host. This is applicable to all the vices I possess. In this context If we read the first paragraph, it relates well.
The seeds are the good thoughts and ideas. Some of them are very shallow, and do not even take roots. Some sprout very fast, and looses out when other priorities crushes it. Some fall in fertile land, and multiplies. This is where a commitment to a higher order helps. Commitment to something, helps to say ‘No’ to many other things. If you are committed to body building, then you will say no to junk food (anything that hampers health). If you are not committed to anything, everything will suffice. This is where I appreciate the words of St. Francis Assissi ‘Be full christians’. Commit completely. There is nothing called partial commitment. Either you are committed or not committed. Commitment to a higher order helps to say ‘No’ to lesser things in life, and this is where commitment to ‘Sprituality’ helps.
Like any change management, this can also be painful initially, till you start seeing the early success stories.
I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.
Yes, when we are committed to a higher order, we may have to die to many smaller things. This is quite natural. We will fall down on the way. We are quite likely to fall back to our older ways. Is this more like carrying our own crosses daily?.
And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.
Prayer is the solution. Prayer for divine protection.
Jesus looked at them intently and said, “Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God everything is possible.”
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.